Wow... The piano lessons in the other room are really throwing off my train of thought. (Have I mentioned how much i dislike living here?)

My parents and grandma just got back from Texas the other day. They were there for my sisters graduation from Basic Training in for the Air Force. She seems to be doing really well. My mom said I wouldn't believe it... she is more respectful, on time, cleaner, etc. All the things, really that you would expect some time in the armed forces would lead to. Good for her. She needs some of that. Respect mostly. I feel a little bad, I didn't fly out to see the ceremony. I said it was because I couldn't take the time off work, but really it was because the last time she was home she treated me really poorly. That combined with the fact that it would cost me to go... It wasn't worth the money to me. Besides, she did have lots of people there to support her.

I can only hope that things are going to get better between us now. I never want to have two girls. Or, I never want to have two girls anywhere close in age. All it leads to is competition between them. Even if they are so different. My sister and I... she's always been the wild, pretty one and I've always been the smart, responsible one. And sometimes I want to be the pretty one. Sometimes she wants to be the responsible one. I get along more with my mom. She gets along more with my dad. It always leads to us competing. And that just strains the relationship. Since I'm older, I'm getting a lot of things in life first. Driving first, moving out first, living together with my boyfriend first... the things that naturally I should be doing first... but I get the feeling she feels like she's in my shadow a lot of the time (even though no one puts her there on purpose.) This Air Force thing is going to be great for her... she'll be able to shine in a way totally different from me, and I can't wait to see how things change with us.

Oh, and did I mention how proud I am of her

Love you, sis!